DJ CRAZYCHAN

I’m just taking a break from studying and I had a thought. Labeling people is the same as judging them because of all the stereotypes connected with labels. So to truly be a non discriminatory person you must dissociate all the labels which you associated to others in the past and replace them with just two:
1. Your friends and family
2. Everybody who isn’t your friend yet
I think this may be a little too idealistic. I ask myself the question if the world can really live like this. Then I dream about this fantasy world, and think all good things start with an idea first.

After reading a rough draft of my short story, my friend told me “you’re such an amazing writer. Every time you spew out something poetic, it blows me away. Not because I don’t think that it’s in you, it’s just that you rarely show it”
After reading that I thought to myself “Me? really? No?” I’m not poetic. I’m not romantic. I’m not emo. I’m not creative. I’m just CrazyChan, a man with something to say, a product of emotional distress and nowhere to let it out except on paper.
One morning not long ago, in the state of half conscientiousness a dreamt about a gnome that crawled up next to my head and whispered in my ear. “Boom!!! let it out Eric or you’re gonna blow up….. Rest your soul.”
I don’t consider my writing art, but if you think about art, you have to think about where it comes from. All art comes from emotions, be it from your conscience for social wrongs, love, death, and just all around distress. All the greatest art in the world came from people with some serious problems, like you need fucking therapy problems. And I don’t wish that upon anybody. So me? CrazyChan? A product of emotional distress, am not a poet or artist. Ignorance is truly bliss, too bad I can’t find it.

The third of four buddhist nobel truths, the cessation of suffering or freedom from craving….. Before I go on I must say that this was originally going to be a rant about girls. But in the interest of not damaging someone’s feeling and psyche I have to make it clear that I’m not singling anyone out……. I can’t sleep, I’m 2 hours away from having been up for 24 hours, I spent 3 hours chasing the dog, I rode around 30 miles partying at critical mass, and I just spent 4 hours standing, playing crappy top 40 music. So my logic may be a little twisted right now….. If I were to relate this buddhist tenant to myself right now, the cessation of suffering would be the freedom from craving girls. Now let’s make something clear. I’m not a lady hater. I have just lost all faith in women. This makes me think about one of the three buddhist poisons, “delusion”. Is this revelation a delusion or a higher state of consciousness from exhaustion. Is all the decisions I’ve made in life, such as giving up everything I ever believed in to join the peace core, a delusion or a form of escapism to give my brain a sense of control? Maybe I shouldn’t join the peace core. I’m already one step closer to being a monk.

I just came back from New York and I must say it is a fucking awesome city. But that’s not why I’m here today. In NYC I was hanging with the Wong sisters and during a discussion over beer the topic of lifestyle came up. Apparently we both wish for some part of the others life….. Well… it’s more her than me. She see’s me as having a very carefree life. I’m a student, I choose my own schedule, I cycle, skydive, rock climb, I’m a DJ so I get to say I go to parties for work, I basically do whatever is fun and will enrich my life. My friend works an office and says she’s miserable. Now you have to really think about my life, I live pay check to pay check. I have no retirement plan, no ambitions for a family or a permanent home. That is definitely not the American dream. How do I live my life like this? One day I asked myself “Do you really want to live forever?” I thought to myself “NO” trying to live forever means that you limit the experiences you have in life. Another topic I asked myself is what is the so called American Dream anyway?
To me there is no absolute answer, but our culture says it’s fame, fortune and the accumulation of wealth. When I say wealth here I mean material things. Now let’s redefine that. The accumulation of wealth to me is friends, family and community. Just ask yourself this “Have you ever thought about all the cool people you’re never gonna meet? Doesn’t that make you sad? How about we build a wealth of friends and family, and live everyday like it’s the greatest day ever.”
On that note I want to mention a terrible trend in America, in America we treat animals better than people. Think about that for a second, in the richest country in the world, animals are more likely to find a home than a person. If you ever hear their stories it’s usually a series of unfortunate events. But as a society we dismiss them as second class citizens and think that they did that to themselves…. To end this I want to tell you something I notice about people. People are usually only nice to you when you’re nice to them first. Now let’s think about that, if nobody was ever nice to anybody the world would be a terrible place. So the next time you see someone down on their luck, have some compassion. You don’t have to give them charity, but recognize them as a human being and treat them with respect. Just thankfully decline or do what I do. Have a conversation with them, they just might teach you a life lesson.

Okay guys next summer there may not be any mountaineering. I just convinced Matty to do the ultimate bike race. The tour de france has nothing on this one. We have one year to prepare which is plenty of time. Here’s the description:

The Great Divide Race is a self-supported, solo competition following the 2,490-mile Great Divide Mountain Bike Route. Traversing Montana, Idaho, Wyoming, Colorado, and New Mexico, the route demands over 200,000 feet of climbing along it’s length. Competitors carry all equipment necessary to negotiate the backcountry, restocking on food and other supplies from the small towns along the route.

So basically you start in Canada and ride to Mexico. The winner this year finished in 15 days, 1 hour, 27 minutes. The female winner finished 7th overall and did in a fucking single speed. Lemme repeat that she finished in 22 days in a FUCKING SINGLE SPEED. The web site has more info

WHO’S WITH ME!

http://greatdividerace.com/

-CrazyChan (the next greatest cyclist ever!)

“Morrie had aging in a better perspective”
“All this emphasis on youth - I don’t buy it” he said. “Listen I know what a misery being young can be, so don’t tell me it’s so great. All these kids who came to me with their struggles, their strife, their feelings of inadequacy, their sense that life was miserable, so bad that the wanted to kill themselves….”
“And in addition to all their miseries, the young are not wise. They have very little understanding about life who want’s to live everyday when you don’t know what’s going on? When people are manipulating you, telling you to buy this perfume and you’ll be beautiful or this pair of jeans and you’ll be sexy - and you belive them! It’s such nonsense”
-excerpt from “tusedays with Morrie: an old man, a young man, life’s greatest lesson” by Mitch Albom

The other day I counted 15 people with Ipods on the back the L Taraval. That was just one car and only half the car. I started thinking, you see peeps all over the place with those things on. Then I thought, what’s wrong with that? Well there are tons of things wrong with it. It puts the Ipod user into an isolated bubble. It says “hey! I’m out in public, but I’m not really.” You may say “Is that bad?” Yes it is I say. We already live in a technological dominated world of isolation. What’s gonna happen to our future when nobody knows how to talk to anybody. Nobody even gets real dates anymore. Everybody is on fucking bullshit eharmony. Most of the guys I know don’t even know how to talk to a girl they just met. They can’t even talk to a guy that they just met. Take off your fucking Ipod! Music was meant to bring people together not to isolate you from the world. I’m not 100% against it. Life is just more fun somtimes when there’s a soundtrack. It’s almost like you’re in a movie. Remember this though, happiness is only real when shared. So share your headphones with a friend. Pop those ear pieces off every once in a while and talk to somebody. Haven’t you ever thought about all the cool people in the world that you’re never gonna meet? Humans are social beings, that is just our nature. This is me CrazyChan I love people and I want to bring everybody together. One more thing, if you’re shy remember this, if you fall down fucking get back up!

It’s the fucking American corn conspiracy! Let’s restate some facts: American corn is subsidized by the government, corn in America is mostly genetically modified, GMO’s are destroying the health of all Americans.
Are you ready for more? Here it goes, because corn is subsidized farmers make more money growing corn more than wheat. Right now corn has even more government incentives, because of the U.S.’s ethanol production as an alternative fuel. What does this mean Chanman, you ask? Well farmers are switching from growing wheat to corn. Which means that we have a wheat shortage. In the past couple of years wheat has gone from 9 dollar a bag to 45 dollars a bag. That is a fucking 500% increase. It rising faster than our fuel prices! If you did not already notice, everything that contains wheat is rising in price. Even my Ambrosia, BEER! That is not the end of it. Because all of our corn is going to ethanol, the corn for human consumption cost more. Here’s another fact, a large percentage of Latin America’s corn is exported from the U.S. but since we’re using it for fuel, they are going hungry. If you ask me that’s gonna mean more illegal immigrants(note: I have no problem with immigrants). Here’s another fact, ethanol has less BTU’s than gasoline so it requires more of it to travel the same distance. That means more out of your pocket. Another fact, corn is not the best way to make ethanol, it takes more energy to produce than it can put out(Harvard research study 2007) So why are they using corn? BECAUSE IT’S FUCKING SUBSIDIZED BY THE GOVERNMENT. It all comes down to the mighty dollar…… Can you imagine it? The future! A world of famine, disease and hunger.

Right now at this very moment my eyes are half closed and for some unknown reason my mind is fighting the sandman. Insomnia at 3 am has provoked me to write the first part of my story. It’s not gonna be very long cuz I can’t think very well right now. So here’s an intro to the story of my struggle.
AWESOME! Look at all the colors!!! What? who’s that? where’s that? was that a ghost? How much can I do before I O.D.? You don’t know? Well let’s find out? WHAT? combining drugs is gonna kill me? Whatever! lemme try it and I’ll be the judge of that. One more is not gonna hurt me. Who do you know? Who can I call? Hook me up man! Is it 2am already? Damn It! That was some good shit!….. Three days later I wake up with no pants, porn blasting on the computer and I’m under the fucking bed. In a semi conscious state I ask myself “Where the fuck am I?” I get up look at myself in the mirror and think “The dragon has got me how do I escape?”

I’m not really a fan of Klondike bars but I would steal one from Neil